I Hate My Dad!
I’m Joy from Philippines and there are many things that are important to me especially my Family and ministry.
I grew up within a fatherless-home and within a Christian environment. I guess I was still young when I received Christ in my life. There are many things that I had encountered. Ever since I was a child I have already felt how to be unaccepted in many ways. I didn’t gain much friendship with kids my age, but gained more friendship with older ones. Some people had already put me down in different ways but I never let them overcome the things I want to achieve.
Well, I’m supposed to be the 2nd child of three siblings, but sadly my youngest sister passed away last Dec.’04. My problem is I don’t know what to do every time I remember the things that people done to me and my family. My dad had left us and he never supported us as a father should. He has three families and we’re the second. I never though that He can cheat on us in many things. I tried my best to forgive him but I still want to know his side of truth.
Deep inside my heart I want to talk to him, but I don’t know how when He seems to be not interested. When my sister died, we contacted them, but none of them gave last respect to my sister. I know they had a reason, but I truly want to see them.
I feel disgusted every time people would ask something about my dad and my sister I will always try my best to avoid talking about dad, I would just change the topic and talk about my little sister. I don’t know why I hate my dad so much. I wonder how I could get rid of this feeling.
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Someone said that it is easier to accept when people not close or related to us hurt us, but when a friend or somebody close to us hurt us, it is so painful. Holding a grudge against someone is like trying to move forward with a big sack of stones on your back. How would you feel? Do you think you would really be able to move forward? Forgiveness will release not only the one who hurt but also the one he has hurt. Forgiveness liberates. During Jesus’ time, a disciple asked Him how many times he should forgive someone who has done him wrong. Check Jesus’ answer in Section 4.24 of Book of Hope and follow His example.
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